Does anybody remember back when you were very young..

final post

Sat, 11 Jun 2005 04:04:35 GMT

okay. so i havnt been able to post in a really long time. and ive come to the conclusion that this wil be my last entry. i dont feel like ranting publically and what not. if i want someone to know something about my day or something tha thappened to me, ill tell them. other than that, im not going to write in here anymore. its been lovley while it lasted. but its time to move on and leave my livejournal for the rest of the world to see when they feel like it? maybe a little while down the line, ill come back and read these things, and laugh. or maybe ill cry? many memories are stored in here. most i will never forget. but like said, it is moving on time... besides ill prly make another one at some point.. or maybe ill miss this one too much and come back? idk..anyways. i say goodbye to all. BYE. lol

Sincerley yours, forever and always..
~the one and only debbie/ Allison/ Allie~

chillen at gors house w/ the one and only kelsey-meister

Sat, 30 Apr 2005 22:16:03 GMT

yo yo yo. i must say, i had a lovley day. w00t w00t. kelseys crackin up right now. its great. oh dear now she wants to marry chris katis moms boyfriend?? the other day she wanted to marry my dad. she wrote in my assignment book the day she was gna marry him. what a nut. i love it. katis saying "BYYYE" really funny. oh dear. i say they have the giggles. aha. oh yeyah. we're ordering a pizza! w00t w00tay. ummm.. yeah. what else is new. electric cloud is pretty rockin if i must say. oh yes. hmm what else can i say?? kelsey wants gor's room and phone. man i wish i had a computer in my room. or internet in general since my computer is so stupid. hmm.. now look at that. a condom? blown up? pink! thats great. well i guess i'll just go bcuz i dont know what else to say?? oh yes. okay..

|sincerley yours, forever an always|
|~*Debbie/deb-meister/deb*sta*~|

random stuff

Thu, 21 Apr 2005 18:07:30 GMT

im bored i guess. im talking some quizzes. and i shall post. yeseree..

Take the quiz: "What is your personality?"

Deep
You have the gift of seeing the beauty of everyday life. You appriciate small things, like the sky on a clear night or a beautiful flower. You are a very emotional person, and you often let out your feelings through writing. You may feel out of place sometimes, but remember, a person like you seldom comes along, and you are unique and very special.

Take the quiz: "RANDOM QUESTION PERSONALITY QUIZ! VEEEERRRRY TRUE RESULTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

YOU NEED MORE CONFIDENCE
LETS PUTN IT THIS WAY... YOU HATE YOURSELF. TRY AND GET A LITTLE MORE CONFIDENCE MAN! I MEAN, YOU'RE GREAT AT CHEERING OTHERS ON FOR THEIR GOALS, SO TRY IT ON YOURSELF! I CAN TELL YOU RIGHT NOW, YOU DESERVE WAY MORE CREDIT FOR YOURSELF THAN YOU GIVE. DON'T THINK YOUR COCKY OR SELF CENTERED BY CHEERING YOURSELF ON AT SOMETHING FOR ONCE! PEOPLE DON'T LIEK TO SEE IT ALL THE TIME, BUT THEY DON'T WANT TO SEE YOU TALKING TRASH ABOUT YOURSELF EITHER. PEOPLE DON'T HATE YOU, AND WHY SHOULD YOU WORRY ABOUT WHAT THEY THINK ANYWAY! THANKS FOR TAKING THE QUIZ!

^^why all the caps??^^

Take the quiz: "Which Random Irish Gaelic Phrase Are You? "

Is maith liom bananai
Is maith liom bananai - 'I like bananas.'You're laid-back and you enjoy the simple things in life. Some might say you're a little too laid-back. Just what is it you're smoking, anyway?

Take the quiz: "What attracts you to people?? ((pics))"

how mysteriuose you are
you waldk through the halls all alone and head down.. your a really cool person once you open up and are very pretty but shattered by tears.. people like you but some people are afriad becuase they mis jugde you .. your everything wrapped into one!! attitude looks and personality !!

Take the quiz: "What is your personal mascot?"

Monkey
Monkey
You are a fun-loving creature aren't you? That's why a monkey suits your tastes best! You always have a smile on your face and you are funny. Congrats!!

okee jenns coming over so ill be back later i guess? bbbyeee

UPDATIINNNGGG

Thu, 21 Apr 2005 05:26:29 GMT

okee.. well i shall update right now.. im listening to popular! oh yes. its hott "you will be.. PoPuLaR.. your gna be PoPuLaR!" w00t w00t. okay. so i cant realy think right now since its like almost 1:15.. actually its 1:14. so yeah iw as right.. woops its 1:15 now. anwyays. okay so last night. i went to jenns.. and kesley was already at kyles. so we put the cake in the oven.. cooked it.. then ashley rowe.. okay im lazy and tired ill finish tomarrow ahah byyeee
~deb

w00t w00t.. chillen at jenns houseeee

Wed, 20 Apr 2005 20:36:33 GMT

oh yes. im chillen at jenns house with kelsey and rojo. we had the best day. we made up dances.. took a walk.. went to the beach.. w00t w00t. it was so awesome. i cant really type out the whole day right yet bcuz we're all getting ready to go to rojo's brothers baseball practice.. ill explain it when im home i guess.
jenn & kels.. we totally rocked that mariah Carrie song.. oh yes. nobody beats that! WOOT WOOT!

|sincerley yours, forever and always|
~*~|Deb*sta|~*~

p.s. im so tired.. but we're going out again yaaay... byyee :-D!

rock you like a hurricane..

Tue, 12 Apr 2005 23:26:04 GMT

aha, i didnt know what to write as a title today, bcuz i awlays use the same thing which is like "blah" or something else.. so i just thought random and BOOM i thought of "rock you like a hurricane" bcuz im feelin that song.. right now.. oh yes.. anyways..

>>maybe i should update more often, but i dont always have time.. i know right.. how can i not have time when im never doing anything.. idk.. hmm well.. im tired.. today was fun i guess? we watched the latino/ghetto romeo and juliet.. finished it.. oh yes.. it was hott.. and umm at lunch.. me jenn ceeevvy and gorrr went down to our lockers and took a bunch of hott pictures.. you'll be seeing those at some point.. in which case i should figure out how to download the sexy ones i have now.. oh yeah and then in Biology me and Ceeevvvyy made a virus! oh it was off the hook bangin hott! you should have seen it.. her name was Fredricka Juan Small pox, bcuz our virus gave you small pox and then led into chicken pox.. and a bunch of other things and there was a high risk that you could spontaneously combust if you got this virus.. oh yes.. that was the best biology class ever. but no!! theres more!!.. *dun dun dun* KATI GOR man this AWESOME AWESOME virus it was even hotter than mine and ceevvyyys.. oh man it was totally BANGIN! you should see it!. im gna take a pic of it and then post it! oh yea!

>>umm well now.. im sitting.. and kelsey was over b4, i had a raging headache so i layed down in my bed, and almost fell alseep.. then we just sat and talked for like an hour about stuff.. random shit that bugs us... i just finished my homework.. i have to write some journla things for Writing Workshop.. oh joy. dont i just love WW *sarcasm*.. i think i need a new backround.. and a new icon. change is good sometiems.. and yes folks.. the POSITIVE debbie is coming around now. what? you may say and question this.. but.. indeed its a good thing. its lovley... oh yes.

okay.. i dont know what else to say.. imw atching smallville, if that interests you! and oh yeah im excited for ths one.. im gna watch american idol and.. ANDDDD HOUSE! i love that show! its awesome. you should watch it. you watch people try and figure out why other people are sickk and in the hospital.. interesting right? woah shane has a HUGE head on jimmy neutron AHAHA.. okay anyways.. i think ill be on my way out. LOVEEEE YOU PEOPLEEEESS((random outburst..))

|sincerly yours, forever and always|
~*|deb*staaaaaaa|*~

blah

Sun, 10 Apr 2005 03:04:51 GMT

wow. how many times have i had "blah" for a heading..
i just feel like crying and i dont know why.
whats wrong with me today?

bored... cold.. idk

Sun, 10 Apr 2005 02:05:18 GMT

have a headache. stomache ache. im complaintative. i cant spell either. blah.
am i always doing something wrong? im sorry if i am.

sittin.. listening to music... beautiful day..

Sun, 03 Apr 2005 22:57:11 GMT

things are cool now. im glad.

>>i went to ash-stas today.. it was fun. we sat and listened to music and then i got a stomache ache! blech! so i went home at 5. we ate candy. or i did. ash-sta thinks thats why i didnt feel good. but i dont really, cuz i eat lots of candy like that all the time..

>>anywho.. im just sitting i think i might take some quizzes or something.. i made some neat-o braclets.. 4 infact. green&light green, blue& orange, magenta& light pink, and blue& light blue. and im on making a dark pink and light pink one.. ya.. now im just really tired..

>>well i say i might as well be going now.. ill post later.. like an alligator.. ahaaaa.. byebye

|sincerley yours, forever and always|
~`Deb*sta`~

crappy day

Sat, 02 Apr 2005 23:31:20 GMT

okay, so today, i thought i was going to goodwill with jenn kelsey and kristine. then kristine decided to go to lunch with her parents. so i asked ashley if she wanted to do something. and she was doing something with noj. okay so was like fine. tehn jenns like "oh can my mom take us" and im like "no my mom got dressed and ready cuz she was gna take us, im not gna tell her not to take us" and so then jenn decided to just meet me there, and i didnt want to dot hat, i just wanted to stick with one plan bcuz i didnt want to have to deal with people leaving at different times or picking people up or someone getting ditched at all. i just wanted to ensure that i had something to do this afternoon, since tonite i dont have anything to do and im gna be home alone. well that went over bad. i got pissed off bcuz i just wanted to go all together and then jenn didnt understand why i was mad. and she wrote crap about me in her lj. figures thats what everyone does. so much drama im so sick of it. i just wanted to do it all together so noting got screwed up. thats it. but of course, im the spazz. whatever. and then i talked to kelsey and im like "oh i bet jenn told you i totally spazzed out on her or soemthing" and seh slike "oh no" and then in jenns lj its like "oh we dont understand why debbies like that" and all this other stuff, and when im on the phone with kels shes like "oh my mom wanted to come but shes not, im going with you instead" and i said something like yeah i know why couldnt she just come with us. but whatever. so then after that i took a shower. i was just totally pissed off and upset over it. idk. and i got out and kristine called and was like "oh i can come if you pick me up from the elks" so we decided to do that, and i said iw as gna call her in the car, and i forgot her cell phone # so i had to run inside and get it. and i slipped down the stairs, wacked my leg, and the side table near the front door, fell over and the candle holder thing broke and everything was messed up and my dad was like "oh allie" and i just had a total break down, and started balling my eyes out as i was walking down teh stairs. then my dad was like "come here hunny" and he gave me a hug but i was still crying, and we went to tell my mom and she was like "oh you think im a bad mom you think i'd get that mad at you" and i was just like no its not even that, ever since this afternoon everything has gone wrong. the whole good will thing went out the window, people are mad at me and saying crap about me, i ruined my moms candle holder, i have nothing to do tonite. idk. im having the worst day. and i just want to sit in my room and sleep. my leg hurts from when i fell, theres a bump on it and its bruised. my arm is all bruised from where i got blood takena nd then lady was like "oh it wont bruise dont worry" and it did.. now im worried about that, what if im sick or something. and softball, im totally bad at it and theres liek no point in it. my grades suck and reports are coming out soon. i cant take it.

bye

blahhh

Sat, 02 Apr 2005 19:03:15 GMT

hmm.. well today, im going to goodwill with jenn and kelsey.. yes that will be dandy. and then idk what im doing bcuz i think kelseys going ot kyles, jenn has to babysit, ashley is having noj over.. and yeah. my parents and cindy are going out, so i might have a night in tonite? so yaeh idk. but its cool i guess? anyways.. last night i went to the old saybrook talent show thing.. it was fun. noj (ashleys boyfriend) ripped up the stage, if i might add. lovley. umm.. idk.. im just rambling on cuz im bored.. la la la de daaaaaaa.. hmm well i guess im gna go i have to take a shower yet. so yeahh.

|sincerley yours, forever and always|
`*`~|Deb-sta|~`*`

survey thingy thing.

Thu, 31 Mar 2005 01:56:45 GMT

ah la la la, today was okay, marcus was an ass and was being stupid and making fun of me, kristine and jess. i almost killed him. but whatever. im gna fill out this survery thingy..

Name: Allison aka. debbie
birthplace: Clinton.. well yale new haven hospital
piercings: 6
height: 5'4
shoe size: 8-8&1/2

DO
you have a bf or gf : nope
you have a crush on someone : yep
you wish you could live somewhere else: yes.
you think about suicide: Nah.
you believe in online dating: i guess, i wouldnt really do it but umm sure.
you want more piercings: at some point
you drink: like juice and water and soda.. yeah.
you steal: nahh
you like cleaning: depends. i like rearranging and cleaning up other peoples houses rooms etc, but i hate cleaning my own room and house.

CHOOSE ONE
black/white: Black
morning/night: morning
pool/jacuzzi: both are nifty.
britney/christina: ehhh equal i guess, i dont really like either. but tehy've both got some catchy songs here and there.
sunlight/moonlight: both
blonde/brunnette: either or. they're both neato
short hair/long hair: long is nice, but so is short.

F A V O R I T E
food : Sushi, french fries, mashed potatos, corned beef, chinese, burger king, pickles, munster cheese, subway..
color(s): Purple, Aqua, olive green.
number: 7, 17, 717, 9, 79
thing to do: play/listen to music, hang with friends, shop, go to the mall, watch movies, talk in general.
thing to talk about : anything taht comes to mind, doesnt matter i could talk about anything forever, im a curious person so it doesnt matter. i like to know whats on peoples minds.
to drink: orange juice, grape soda, orange soda, any juice.
candy: i love candy, its doesnt matter. i like everything.

W H A T. P O P S. I N. Y O U R. H E A D
banana: ovular!
holes: in my ears!
backstreet boys: show me the meaning of beeinng lonley
coconuts: AHH I LOVE COCONUT FLAVORS AND SCENTS!
sleep: now. sleep now.
money: wheresgeorge.com

W O U L D -Y O U- R A T H E R
Pierce your nose or tongue?: tounge.
Be serious or be funny?: both you have to know when to be funny and when to be serious.
Drink whole or skim milk?: whole milk, i've always had whole milk, so everything else tastes watery.

D O Y O U P R E F E R
Flowers or angels?: Angels
Grey or gray?: ehh does matter, i guess gray
Color or black-and-white photos?: color expresses things better, but black and white, gives you a different perspective. they're both cool.
Lust or love: love by far.
M&Ms or Skittles?: skittles

CHOOSE
sun or rain: both, sun is nice, makes me feel awake, but rain can be really fun, theres a lot to do in the rain.
sunset or sunrise: sunrise.
puppies or kittens: both- they're both uber cute!
soda or ice cream: Soda
tv or music: tv, bcuz theres music on tv.
slippers or shoes: Slippers
summer or winter: winters pretty, but its cold seasons blahh icky weather, shoveling snow. blah so summer.

FAVORITES
food: uhh..Sushi, french fries, mashed potatos, corned beef, chinese, burger king, pickles, munster cheese, subway..
things to do: play/listen to music, hang with friends, shop, go to the mall, watch movies, talk in general
band: ahh.. too many. my chemical romance, reel big fish, less than jake, brand new,new found glory, red hot chili peppers, something corporate. etc.
tv show: boy meets world, american idol, rock countdown, spongebob, fairly odd parents.. etc.
drink: orange juice, grape soda, orange soda, any juice.

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT
love: is good. even tho it sucks when the person doesnt love you back, you cant force anything. eventually everyone will find the one they need, and then love is beautiful.
long distance relationships: they're really difficult to deal with, they're stressfull, worrysome, and they can suck, but if you love the person, then thats what makes it worth while
teenage smoking: not my choice, i dont do it, but i cant make anyone do it, they choose to do it. whatever they want. its stupid to me but hey thats me, im not gna judge you or treat you lesser for that.
sneaking out: ehh not my thing eitehr, but whatever.
car accidents: dangerous and they realy suck, but you cant avoid them, they just happen.
mistakes: happen bcuz they do, you cant avoid them either so you just learn from your own mistakes.
school: you learn a bunch of shit that you dont need, and then you take the information your going to need in your life and use it when you needi t. half of it is useless.
margaritas: umm i guess they're good? ive tried it once and dont remember it.aha in the hamptons.
tampons: well, you see.. girls use them when they have their periods.. yes it happens, its normal it has to happen..

RANDOM
red or blue: red
spring or fall: spring
are you bored: mhm
last noise you heard: someone talking
last time you went out of state: a couple weeks ago.
things you like in the opposite sex: eyes, smile, personality, looks are bonus.
do you have a crush on someone: mhm.
what book are you reading now: none as of now i guess? the bible???
worst feeling in the world: i dont know, i guess, being alone, having people be mad at me, knowing i did something wrong or i hurt someone.
the first thing you think when you wake up in the morning: damnit, its morning already? or that i want to throw my alarm clock across the room.
how many rings before you answer: umm usually like 2, but it depends if i have a phone.
future daughter's name: emma, maria, faith, hope, april.
future sons name: jared, jacob..
do you sleep with a stuffed animal: aha yeah, i have eyore, 4 cows, a pig, some random thing that i dont know what it is.. and umm like 4 pillows.
if you could have any job you wanted, it would be: umm.. musicienne, hair stylist, fashion designer, phycietrist.
lefty, righty, or ambidextrous: Righty, but i'd like to be both. at some point.
do you type with your fingers on the right keys: usually. i try to, its pretty easy for me now.
whats under your bed: shoes.. uhh dust.
favorite sport to watch: baseball.
current age: 15
siblings: sister and brother
college plans: not sure yet, ill find out when i get there.

1). THREE NICKNAMES YOU HAVE: Debbie, Debwhorah, Allie

2).THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT
YOURSELF: idk, i cant really say much. i dont really look at myself that way, unless anyone has something to state which i doubt.

3). THREE THINGS YOU HATE ABOUT
YOURSELF: my negetiveness, my chubbyness, the way i ruin everything, my uglyness, my short hair, the way i think so horribly of myself.

4). THREE THINGS YOU DON'T
UNDERSTAND: ignornant people, making fun of people.. idk

5). THREE THINGS THAT ANNOY YOU: when clothes hang out of my "dirty clothes" basket, ignorant people... umm people being mad at me.

6). THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU: spiders, beatles, cocaroaches.

7). THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY
ESSENTIALS: drinking, eating, sleeping.

8). THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BRANDS: umm less than jake, reel big fish, something corporate

9). THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT
THE MOMENT: ummmm.. i cant say, bcuz i like alot of music.

10). THREE PEOPLE YOU SPEND THE MOST
TIME WITH: kelsey, kristine, my family.

11). THREE THINGS YOU CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT: family, friends, food/drink.. and sunlight i guess?

12). THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES: playing/listening to music, making braclettes, umm computer.. umm yeah?

13). THREE THINGS YOU CAN'T WAIT TO HAVE: job, car, liscence

14). THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING: hair stylist, fashion designer, phycietrist

15). THREE COLORS YOU LIKE: purple, aqua, orange/yellow.. green

16). THREE PLACES YOU WOULD GO ON VACATION: italy, caribbean.. umm grand canyon.. lots of places

17). THREE NAMES OF OPPOSITE SEX: ummm james, jared, peter.

18.) THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE FOODS: sushi, chinese food, pasta

19.) THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE RESTAURANT: errr idk. id ont go out to eat alot.

20.)THREE QUALITIES ARE YOU LOOKING FOR IN A GUY/GIRL: funny, caring, loyalty.

I Have...
[ ] been drunk.
[ ] smoked pot.
[ ] kissed a member of the opposite sex.
[ ] rode in a taxi.
[ ] been dumped.
[ ] shoplifted.
[ ] been fired.
[ ] been in a fist fight.
[ ] had sex.
[ ] had a threesome
[ ] snuck out of my parent's house.
[ ] been arrested.
[ ] made out with a stranger.
[ ] stole something from my job.
[ ] celebrated new years in times square.
[ ] gone on a blind date.
[x] lied to a friend.
[ ] had a crush on a teacher.
[ ] celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans.
[ ] been to europe.
[x] skipped school.
[ ] thrown up from drinking.
[x] played 'clue'.
[x] had a sleepover party.
[x] been ice skating.
[ ] dropped x.
[ ] cheated on a bf/gf.
[ ] been cheated on.
[ ] had a car.
[x] drove.

Do I...
[ ] have a bf..
[ ] have a gf.
[x] have a crush
[ ] feel loved.
[x] feel lonely.
[x] feel happy.
[x] hate myself.
[ ] think i`m attractive.
[ ] have a dog.
[ ] have my own room.
[x] listen to rap.
[x] listen to rock.
[ ] listen to soul.
[ ] listen to techno.
[ ] listen to reggae.
[x] paint my nails.
[x] have more than 1 best friend.
[ ] get good grades.
[x] play an instrument.
[x] have slippers.
[ ] wear boxers.
[ ] wear black eyeliner.
[x] like the color blue.
[x] like the color yellow.
[ ] cyber.
[x] like to read.
[x] like to write.
[ ] have long hair.
[x] have short hair.
[ ] have a cell phone.
[ ] have a laptop. (sort of, its not really mine)
[ ] have a pager.

Am I...
[x] ugly.
[ ] pretty.
[ ] ok.
[x] bored.
[x] happy.
[ ] bilingual.
[x] caucasian.
[ ] black.
[ ] mexican.
[ ] asian.
[ ] short.
[ ] tall.
[ ] grounded.
[ ] sick.
[x] a virgin.
[x] lazy.
[x] single.
[ ] taken.
[x] looking.

[x] talking to someone.
[x] IMing someone.
[ ] scared to die.
[x] tired.
[x] annoyed.
[x] hungry.
[x] thirsty.
[ ] on the phone.
[ ] in my room.
[ ] drinking something
[ ] eating something.
[ ] in my pjs.
[x] ticklish.
[x] listening to music.
[ ] homophobic.
[ ] racist.

ahh i finally finished it. and now its mineeeeeee.. all minnee.. anyhow.. im quite tired so i shall goo.. byebye

*|sincerley yours, forever and always|*
`*`~|Deb, Allie, Allison, Veronika, Gladice...etc|~`*`

p.s. tomarrow i gotta get blood taken, damnit im so nervous :-/ eekkk

sitting on my ass..

Wed, 23 Mar 2005 22:46:19 GMT

okay im sitting.. wow florida was like so fun!!! it was stressful and there wasnt alot of time to sleep, but it was jam packed with fun stuff like universal disney and blizzard beach. wow fun. i cant say it all right now cuz i have guests over! hahaha!!!! yah.. so ill type it all after.. okayy byeee

survery ma bobber

Wed, 23 Mar 2005 22:42:21 GMT

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:

» I committed suicide:
» I said I liked you:
» I kissed you:
» I lived next door to you:
» I started smoking:
» I stole something:
» I was hospitalized:
» I ran away from home:
» I got into a fight and you weren't there:

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:

» Personality:
» Eyes:
» Face:
» Hair:
» Clothes:
» Mannerisms:
» Family:

[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Would you adore me?
[13] Are we close?
[14] Emotionally, what stands out?
[15] Do you wish I was cooler?
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[18] Am I loveable?
[19] How long have you known me?
[20] Describe me in one word.
[21] What was your first impression?
[22] Do you still think that way about me now?
[23] What do you think my weakness is?
[24] Do you think I'll get married?
[25] What about me makes you happy?
[26] What about me makes you sad?
[27] What reminds you of me?
[28] What's something you would change about me?
[29] How well do you know me?
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[31] Do you think I would kill someone?
[32] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?

fill this hott thing out if it turns you on.. yah..
im going to hang out and dance to ghetto music with kelsey and civy, cuz we're cooler than you!! MUAHAHAHA *evil laugh*

*|sincerley yours, forever and always|*
~*|Debrahh|*~

okee..

Fri, 11 Mar 2005 00:05:51 GMT

alright im bored so im posting this..

How to make a Deb

Ingredients:

5 parts success

1 part humour

1 part beauty

Method:
Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Serve with a slice of sadness and a pinch of salt. Yum!

Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com

listening to music

Thu, 10 Mar 2005 21:06:52 GMT

i cant believe you found me when no one else was looking how did you know just where i would be? you broke through all of my confusion the ups and the downs and you still didnt leave.. i guess that you saw what nobody else could see.. you found me.... and i was hiding till you came along and showed me where i belong...

.. i like that song so i posted it.

hi

Thu, 10 Mar 2005 20:59:19 GMT

okay. today was alright. french was hysterical omg the sub. was so stupid and a bitch nutcase. she seperated me and kelsey and made me and kelsey sit at teh front of the class. dumb bitch! lol anyways. im listening to music. ashley is brain washed lmao. j to the k. florida is next week, i dont show it but im excited. not extatic but yeah. i need to go shopping at walmart and fuzzy wigs and also get my suitcase out and pack. umm.. cindy acted normal today, but idk wahtever. i changed my backround it hott. gym today sucked. blech. im so bad at sports. idk how im gna make softball even tho i really want to play. i suck at everything. im being too negetive today. idk i was gna say more but i forgot if i remember ill post it. bye

-deb.

aaaaaaaaaahhhhh

Thu, 10 Mar 2005 01:37:30 GMT

well hello. we had another 2 hour delay today. the roads sucked even when it was like 9:15. they were real slippery. grossness. we should have had a cancellation. anyways. today was okay at first. then it started sucking. cindy yelled at me bcuz i was late getting to the car after school. i decided i wanted a soda. and i took 3 minutes if that extra to walk and get one and she told me i couldnt anymore because i made her wait 10 minutes. and then she continued to tell me that she was sick of this and that and she wasnt going to be picking me up if i was going to be blah blah blah. whatever. holly my parakeet is dying. :-/. at first i didnt think i would be upset but now i am. HOLY FUCKER. omg. this isnt funny this just made my day 10 times worst. i looked back just like 5 seconds ago and hollys at the bottom of her cage dead. wtf why me? why does the bird have to die on me. :-(. wtf. anyways. i failed a test today. woo.. good for me im so horrible. i ate the rest of the marshmellow bag.. fat me. your going to be able to roll me soon. i cant even think anymore im too flustered. i have to go..

sincerley yours, forever and always
~*|debbie|*~

bored.. tired.. crabby.

Wed, 02 Mar 2005 00:41:27 GMT

hmm well today we had a delay. 2 hours. it seemed too long for only a few hours in school. i came home started my french homework and went to sleep. my clothes frmo alloy came today. yay. im excited about that. but i need to loose weight. i've gained. no more oreos. :-/
i talked to kayla online. weird. idk why, i think shes cool, but i never thought she liked me. i guess she does. i feel good about that. at least i know shes not one of the people who doesnt like me or who thinks im a total nutcase. thanks kayla.

i took a quiz, here it is:

Your love is... by ChibiMarronchan
Your name is...
Your kiss is...	mysterious
Your hugs are...	to die for
Your eyes...	twinkle in the moonlight
Your touch is...	heart warming
Your smell is...	beautiful
Your smile is...	entrancing
Your love is...	everlasting

Quiz created with MemeGen!

weird. okay ne ways. im gonna go upstairs and watch american idol. i cant wait for tomarrow afternoon.. kelsey knows what im talking about. wootay woot wazoo. yay. anyways ttyl byebye

|sincerley yours, forever and always|
~*|Debbie|*~

late night, morning sickness?

Sun, 27 Feb 2005 23:07:40 GMT

woo, so yesterday, i had kelsey and kristine over and we hung out for a while until kristine decided she wanted to get chinese food, luckily she had like some money. like 22$. so i ordered some food. and then we were like "eekk what if he slips and falls on the walk way?!" bcuz our walkway was covered in snow.. so we went and shovled the driveway, well me and kristine did kelsey just froze her ass off. while i was shoveling kristine all the sudden turns and is like "omg kelsey i just threw up!" and shes like "what?!" and kristines like "i was just caughing really hard and i had spit in my mouth so i spit it out and it was like red!" so we look over at where she spit and it was like this red substance. weird lol. then shes like "oh i ate ketchup today so thats prolly what it is.. and strawberrys!". haha kristine threw up a whole tomato! yeah then kristine was shoveling after i got half way done and my neighbor up the street a little was calling her dogs inside and kristine thought that she was talking to her, so all of the sudden kristines like "WHAT?!" and then kelseys like "huh?" and then you hear "bella, Ozzy come inside!" or sumthing and kelsey and kristine start cracking up and tehy're like "OMFG we thought she was talking to us so kristine was yelling back to her!" and then we all started laughing.. then we finished and went inside.

finally the chinese food guy came, kristine payed, and we pigged out. then we got into this religious discussion. kelsey was confused again, so i tried to explain. then we decided to read from the bible. so i read some stuff about the end of the world. but i think it jsut confused kelsey. so then i told her maybe we could get the Omega Code, which is about the book of revelation (a.k.a the end of the world), and we agreed we wanted to see it, but then i ws like "idk maybe we shouldnt bcuz its really confusing" you have to read the book of revelation to understand a lot of it, and i dindt know if kelsey would get it bcuz i saw it and thought it ws sorta confusing. so then we decided we wanted to see The Passion Of The Christ. Only problem was that we didnt have a way to get the movie, and my parents werent home niether was cindy. So we tried calling my parents, but their cell phones were off. so i called cindy, and she said that she would take us to block buster when she got home from andrews around 10:30-11:00 if my parents still werent home or they wouldnt take us. luckily, my parents came home. it was like 9:15 i think and i told my parents i wanted to rent a movie, and they were like "okay" so we told them we wanted to see The Passion Of The Christ. My dad offered to rent it for us. Before he left we discussed a few things. it was nice. i told him i thought that a lot of the reason people/kids didnt believe in jesus or god was because most of the time people just want answers, they want to know why everything happens, and that when they dont find all the answers, they jsut figure if nothing proves it, why believe it? well, personally i think, you dont have to know everything, whats the use? we dont need to know everything, and plus if we did, what do you think man kind would do with all that information? anyways my dad had a good point. he said, alot of it is faith, you jsut have to believe, he said what about this, "have you ever seen a million dollars?" we were like "no" and hes like "then why do you believe in it? why do you think theres such thing if you've never seen it?" and then he said "did you ever meet abe lincoln? have you ever seen him in person?" we all said no again and he said the same thing "then how do you know hes real? what makes you believe in him". i think hes got a point. he said a few other things, like how out in the west, theres areas of desert/canyon where theres places of 4 feet deep sea creature fossils. how do fossils get created? how is there mark left? with water/mud right? well its in the west, its all desert/canyon now, so how did it get there? how was there mud if theres no water? he thinks it was the great flood. makes sence to me.

anyways, he went and got the movie and we started to watch it. I have to say, i knew what to expect. my dad said in the first place straight out, that it was extremley violent, gory and heart breaking sad. and i knew it, i've read the story in the bible. but you know, it didnt really click to me, it didnt really make that much of an impact to me until i watched that movie how much jesus was put through. what they did to him and how much he gave for us. It was absolutley horrible. It was so horrible and heart breaking. I could barley handle watching it. Some parts were just like "wow" how could i not be more thankful than i am right now. I cried at the end. During the Middle of the movie i cried a little bit. but at the end, it was just amazing. i couldnt hold it back, and i bawled my eyes out. I just feel different towards certain things. At the end of the movie, it was like jesus was on the cross, blood everywhere, cuts all across his body. so weak he could barley speak. On both sides of him, there were criminals. one seemed possesed and totally odd. but the one on the other side of him. he was sad, it seemed. and he turned to jesus and said something like "i know i've done wrong and the punishment i've gotten, but i only pray that you will remember me lord, as you enter your kingdom" and jesus was like "amen, to you. I promise you, one day, you and i will be together, In paradise" Its unexplainable. i cant even put into words how i felt after that movie. sometimes it takes something random for things to kick in and for you to realize things differently, to get a real understanding. I really liekd the ending though, the screen turned black and i thought it was over and then you see a cave and a rock covering the door, and all the sudden the rock covering the cave, moves and uncovers the cave, and sitting next to the cave, is jesus. not bloody, not cut up, but he has holes in his hands, where they put the nails through him. its not bloody, theres skin over it. its amazing. i cant explain it. idk what to say. just to think, he sacraficed himself, god sent his only son to be killed for us. for our sins so we could be saved and live eternally. and only through jesus can we communicate with god.

Alright i figured half of who read my journal, stopped reading this post way back at the beginning of this huge 2 paragraphs or if they didnt they think im a nutcase. but i dont know soemthign really got me. and ijust want to learn more now, and tell people more. im always open to that. i like to tell people as much as i can about god and jesus and the bible. some of my friends think its ridiculas but they can think that. im happy with my beliefs. im gna go now.. byebye

|Sincerley Yours, Forever and Always|
~*|Debbie|*~

p.s.-im always really curious about things, and i feel like i learned alot form the movie and i think other pple did too and i guess that just makes me happy. kkeee byebye

bored..again

Sat, 26 Feb 2005 23:01:07 GMT

okay heres more [again]....

*TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey*
Name:	Allison Ruth Milewski
Birthday:	February 11, 1990
Birthplace:	Yale New Haven Hospital
Current Location:	Westbrook
Eye Color:	grayish-blue green.
Hair Color:	darkish brown
Height:	5'3
Right Handed or Left Handed:	right handed, but i want to learn how to write with my left too
Your Heritage:	Irish, English, German, Polish and Italian
The Shoes You Wore Today:	My black&White worn out vans
Your Weakness:	i worry excessivley & have low self esteem
Your Fears:	that i'll loose all my friends, that somebody hates me/is mad at me, fighting, being alone, dead people & the dark
Your Perfect Pizza:	umm,.. sausage, cheese and mushrooms
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	get good grades, make new friends and figure out what i want to do with my life/what college i want to go to.
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	"ummm", "idk", "lol", "hah", "okee", "right-o"
Thoughts First Waking Up:	ugh, what the hell am i gna wear today, i hate school. something like that
Your Best Physical Feature:	nothing. my eyes if anything, and they suck too so yeah
Your Bedtime:	umm usually on a school night around 10:30/11:00, anytime on the weekends
Your Most Missed Memory:	how life used to be b4 i moved to guilford and then to westbrook, 7th grade, being carefree and not worrying about anything.
Pepsi or Coke:	pepsi
MacDonalds or Burger King:	burger king
Single or Group Dates:	either/or
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	Lipton iced tea
Chocolate or Vanilla:	both
Cappuccino or Coffee:	both
Do you Smoke:	no
Do you Swear:	sometimes.
Do you Sing:	i love to, but i suck.
Do you Shower Daily:	yes
Have you Been in Love:	i dont think so, not yet.
Do you want to go to College:	i think so, im not sure.
Do you want to get Married:	someday, when im ready.
Do you belive in yourself:	no, i suck.
Do you get Motion Sickness:	no i dont think so.
Do you think you are Attractive:	no, im buttass ugly.
Are you a Health Freak:	nope
Do you get along with your Parents:	most of the time, more so my dad.
Do you like Thunderstorms:	to a certain extent, after a while the thunder gets annoying, but the lightning is cool.
Do you play an Instrument:	the alto saxophone, the baritone saxophone, the guitar and some piano
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	umm maybe from my dad, but he lets me.
In the past month have you Smoked:	no.
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	no.
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	nope.
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	yeah, yesterday i went to the post mall yesterday, and the clinton outlets today.
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	i dont think so, no.
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	yes, on my birthday.
In the past month have you been on Stage:	no.
In the past month have you been Dumped:	no.
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	no, its freezing outside and i wouldnt show my body anyways.
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	no.
Ever been Drunk:	nope
Ever been called a Tease:	no
Ever been Beaten up:	not really.
Ever Shoplifted:	nope
How do you want to Die:	the way im supposed to.
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	im not sure yet, a phycietrist, a fashion designer, a magazine editor/creator, a wedding planner or a musician.
What country would you most like to Visit:	ummm.. italy probably.
*In a Boy/Girl..*
Favourite Eye Color:	umm i liek them all. brown, blue, green, black.
Favourite Hair Color:	like them all. black, brown, blonde, red.
Short or Long Hair:	in between. curley and to the eyes preferably. but doesnt really matter.
Height:	taller than me. at least 5'6.
Weight:	um, not skin and bones but not obese.
Best Clothing Style:	doesnt matter
Number of Drugs I have taken:	none.
Number of CDs I own:	too many to count
Number of Piercings:	5
Number of Tattoos:	none.
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	too many to even remember.
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

COLOR QUIZ RESULTS:

*Your Existing Situation*
Sensitive; needs esthetic surroundings, or an equally sensitive and understanding partner with whom to share a warm intimacy.

*Your Stress Sources*
The existing situation is disagreeable. Has an unsatisfied need to ally herself with others whose standards are as high as her own, and to stand out from the rank and file. Her control of her sensual instincts restricts her ability to give herself, but the resulting isolation leads to the urge to surrender and allow herself to merge with another. This disturbs her. as such instincts are regarded as weaknesses to be overcome; she feels that only by continued self-restraint can she hope to maintain her attitude of individual superiority. Wants to be loved or admired for herself alone; needs attention, recognition, and the esteem of others.

*Your Restrained Characteristics*
Wants to broaden her fields of activity and insists that her hopes and ideas are realistic. Distressed by the fear that she may be prevented from doing what she wants; needs both peaceful conditions and quiet reassurance to restore her confidence.

*Your Desired Objective*
Defiantly opposes any sort of restriction or opposition. Sticks obstinately to her own point of view in the belief that this proves her independence and self-determination.

*Your Actual Problem*
The need for esteem--for the chance to play some outstanding part and make a name for herself--has become imperative. She reacts by insisting on being the center of attention, and refuses to play an impersonal or minor role.

*Your Actual Problem #2*
The fear that she might be prevented from achieving the things she wants drives her to the exploitation of all types of experience, so that she may categorically deny that any of them has any value. This destructive denigration becomes her method of concealing hopelessness and a profound sense of futility.

^^okay thats it.. heres the link where you can take the quiz for youself http://www.colorquiz.com/ all you have to do is click on "take the quiz" and follow the directions^^

Take the quiz: "What does your birth month reveal about you?"

February
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent andclever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislike unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

^^i think i've taken that one b4 but o well^^

Take the quiz: "What piercing are you?"

Navel
You're the popular girls at school. You like your lip gloss, boys and....er...boys. You are confident and have fun with your friends but you dont like to mix with the unpopular kids

^^ummm lets just say. woah. total opposite.. boys and lipgloss are good. im not popular and i dotn reject people.^^

Take the quiz: "What clothing store are you?"

Zumiez
You like a look all your own...you need you clothes to talk for you because your a little shy...with these clothes you can be your self...fudge abercrombie skanks!! jk

Take the quiz: "How blond are you?"

Brunette
Your defintly not a dumb blond but I'm sure you have your moments,Thers more to life then grades and your repution let loose man go smoke a jiont! have some fun, just loosen up!admit it you noticed all the spelling mistakes.

Take the quiz: "What should your nick name be?"

dylan
your smart but u surround yourself with people that dont share your IQ but you luv them anyway

Take the quiz: "What kind of eyes do you have? (with pictures)"

Eden
You have eden eyes. Eden is the color of water. Your eyes symbolize your great flexibility. You are a creative person. You can think of many good ways to get your point across to people as you have very good communication abilities. When someone feels down or is hurt, you have the remarkable ability to help them and heal them. If you have too little going on in your life, you may be withdrawn and depressed, timid, manipulative, unreliable, stubborn, or suspicious. Some words to describe you: peaceful, sincere, affectionate, tranquil, intuitive, trustworthy, pure, loyal, healing, and stable.

okay me and kristine are going to hang out bcuz we're cool and your not so go away.... bye

|sincerley yours, forever and always|
*|Debbie|*

boreder than bored?

Thu, 24 Feb 2005 17:41:21 GMT

okay, im jus gna post some quizzes i guess? im so bored..

Take the quiz: "What O.C. character are you?"

anna
your the cool one that nows every thing. you keep it smooth and are down to earth. Keep it up

Take the quiz: "What girl Real World Charchter are you?"

Shavonda
ur kinda shy at first but when people get 2 kno u they begin 2 think totally differnt.u are very pretty and u think Landon is a pretty boy lets not tell ur boyfriend tho.

Take the quiz: "What blond actress r u??"

Reese Witherspoon
You like to play dumb blonde roles and you also like to make people laugh. You don't care what people think of you and you are a cool, collected actress. You bring joy and laughter to everyone and have an old soul. You rule!!

Take the quiz: "Which One Tree Hill girl are you?"

Haley
You're shy, but have a strong opinion on how you've chosen to live your life. You've made some hard decisions in your life.

Take the quiz: "What guy from The O.C. is right for you?"

Seth Cohen
Youre dream O.C. guy is Seth! He's a great friend and an amazing boyfriend! You're really lucky! Now go and listen to Deathcab for Cuties-A Lack of Color

Take the quiz: "Are you Mary-kate or Ashley?"

Mary-Kate
Fun, Funky, Unique..you've got it all...

kkeee thats it.. write later.. bye

just thinking....

Thu, 24 Feb 2005 01:30:53 GMT

well, its wedsenday, i can never spell that right, i hate it but whatever. im in a serious almost htinking mood, i cant type right, but im not going back to change the words right now. im tired i guess, i woke up earily spent most of the day with kelsey then around 3 went to walmart and bought a bigger pot holder for kelseys cactus. walking towards walmart, near halmark cindy notcied this guy was followng us, he had been behind us at the stop light , and then we parked and he had been following us that whole time, so cindy was like "go into hallmark" so we go in and the guy followed us in there, i was like "wth" cuz i didnt know what was going on yet, and cindys like "that guy was following us" and i didnt see any guy so i was still confused, and i guess like ia lready explained he was driving behind us.. and etc, leading us into hallmark to try and get away from him. well when he wasnt looking we bolted out towards walmart. cindy and i bought deoderant cuz we've been using my dads since i ran out. when i slept over kelseys house i jsut grabbed the deoderant not remembering that my dad and my sister use it too, so when my sister told me i felt bad. anyways i bought the regular type i do, but they didnt have teh scent i usually get. o well. cindy got dove, i dont remember what kind i get, its a guys deoderant cuz girls deoderant doesnt work for me. anyways, i was dissapointed, but it does the same thing so whatever... after walmart we dropped kelsey off at her house, went home and did nothing, which leads me here. sitting and thinking. my family is argueing over easter and why cindys boyfriend and his family cant come over for easter dinner. idk im not getting into it.

theres always these times where i get really serious, something strikes me and it leads me into thinking about all sorts of things, i was thinking about what i wanted to be when i get older, i havnt decided. i just know i want to do something i enjoy, and gives me a really good pay so that can support my parents, and they can have an earily retirement, i feel bad. they work so hard, and i feel horrible thinking that they have to work until they're 65 years old. i mean who knows how long they're gna be around, they want to travel. idk. i dont know what i watn to be, theres so much out there. too much to pick from.the world is too complicated. people are so different. relgions, customs. personalities. im so curious latley. idk where to start asking questions. i ask my dad stuff alot. wheni have questions. hes so smart. and he always answers me the best he can. i really look up to my dad. i love him with all my heart. all the way to the deepest bottom pit of my heart. my mom is trying, i lvoe her too, she really is trying to talk to me and im trying to talk to her more. but, i seem to agree with my dads beliefs more than my moms. so i like asking my dad more than my mom. dont get me wrong i ask my mom stuff when i want to, but idk. i love my mom too. shes pretty awesome. i seriusly think shes trying and it makes me feel all the better. sometimes tehres random anger burts and she insults me but idk. its ok i guess. things will eventually be ok in my mind. in my heart. ill make them ok. and if i dont, god will. right?

its wed. like said, i should start homework, its so overwhelming sometimes to think about it, i need to figure out colleges and whati really want to do. and keeping grades up. idk. i just dont know im scared. im raelly scared bcuz im horrible with school and i try but its hard. its so hard for me to handle idk what to do, and now im babbling on and on...

idk what else, theres just a million things running thru my mind, jessie b. my friend from guilford posts a song in her lj after every post, i think im stealing that from her. :-/. someone talk to me, im in a serious mood and i need to just talk. maybe ill talk to my dad when they're done argueing. maybe read the bible. i like being open about that stuff. the bibles really important to me. and i bet half the poeple who read this are discusted with me and how im happy about the bible and god and how i talk about it, but w/e. i like it. .. anyways. im gna go. byebye

|sincerley yours, forever and always|
~*<|Debbie|>*~

p.s. i seriously need a baithing suit, and its gotta cover my stomache, so if you know anywhere to find a super awesome baithing suit that covers your stomache, plz do tell me!! :-/

hiya?

Mon, 21 Feb 2005 23:58:33 GMT

okay, im really tired? it snowed today.. no school until next monday.. yay? heres some quizzes:

^^ummm what a suprise??? psht, pple say i act like a ministers daughter, a holy girl etc all the time.. i cant deny it, so im a bible reading christian, and im proud of it. not ashamed. anyways.. heres more:

~HOROSCOPE~
Aquarius are born between Janaury 20th and February 19th
Aquarius is an Air sign.

You are an intuitive person who's intuition always serves you well. An inventive soul. you strive to make the world a better place. You are a true humanitarian and have lots of friends who are attracted to your individualism. You like to be different and sometimes this means others find you a tad strange.
^^thats my horoscope, nothign exciting but yea...^^

Take the quiz: "Which Disney Princess are you most like (with 2 new princesses)"

Ariel
You are tottaly in love with the sea and really enjoy collecting its tresaures. Everyone finds you attractive, playful, a good swimmer, and mischevous.

okay more later.. byebye

kee taking some quizzes i guess??

Fri, 18 Feb 2005 21:15:35 GMT

okay so heres some results i guess...

Take the quiz: "WHAT MOVIE ARE YOU ?? (4 GIRLS)"

She's All That
Your hip, smart and hilarious. Your a little romantic but completely funny!! You've got a great way of being sarcastic and you know that life doesn't always have to be ordinary.

Take the quiz: "Which character are you from THE NOTEBOOK????"

Noah
You are Noah. Very loving and dedicated to Allie!!!!!! Never stopped loving her since the summer they've met and fell in love!!!!
^^ aww...doesnt everyone wish they had someone who was like noah? i do...^^

What's Your Style? Find out @ She's Crafty

Which Sin Are You?
Name
DOB
Favourite Color
You are...	Not a sin

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